Blab

Well, I have now had my job a couple of weeks. I get my first paycheck Friday and with all that I need to do I will be out of money the same day. My light is on in my car telling me I need an oil change, I have to change my ID to my maiden name, register my car in Utah (getting an emisions test first), change my insurance, move my loan, pay my tithing (witch really is first on my list), and if I can get my tires rotated and hope they'll last. I've driven that car for two years now and the tires haven't been rotated ever!

I do have a few problems with my job. One: It is soooooo boring most of the time. On weekdays there aren't many people who come in, and I'm supposed to have things to keep myself and the sales associate busy. Two: I don't want to work nights. I don't get home until 10 or 10:30 and then I'm WIDE AWAKE. For the last at least three years I have been going to bed around 10. Now I go to bed around 12 or 1.

I can't allow myself to go to sleep until I'm totally ready, meaning I have to read until my eyes start drooping. For otherwise I will think and thinking right now is really bad. I tend to get upset when I think. I decided it's really hard to get over this divorce (not that I thought it would be easy) because I do still Love Ray, but because of the other problems we couldn't stay married. I try really hard to stay positive and upbeat but when I'm alone it comes out almost every single time.

The good things I have found here are: An awesome ward! I started going to a singles ward a couple of weeks ago and I absolutely LOVE going to church. In fact I look forward to it. The first Sunday I went I felt the spirit so strong and I haven't felt that in years! The people are very friendly also.

Oh, I have also started over again reading the Twilight series and I've decided everyone needs to read it more than once. It's so much better the second time.