Happy New Year

It has been pointed out to me that I am way behind on my blog. I will agree since it was October. It is now almost New Years and not much has changed.

I still work at DownEast but I also have a job at a kiosk. I am still not making what I did at the middle school where I used to work but oh well.

I am LOVING my ward. I have great friends there and love the activities...when I get to go.

I did get to go to the Christmas one, in fact I helped out a bit. I took care of the table decorations (nativities I had in storage), made about two hundred cookies, and two big bowls of chicken salad. I had many compliments on my nativities and cookies. And I wasn't in the activities commitee...until that night. That is now my new calling. I am REALLY excited to be doing it. The only thing that worries me is that I was done being social by the time the dinner started that night. I hope it gets better, it's not much fun to be tired of people and HAVE to stay.

I need to learn to forgive myself. I am having a hard time forgiving myself for ignoring what I knew what was right (three years ago) and doing what I wanted. I try now to do what is right but I still can't believe the things I wouldn't (probably) have faced if I had listened to the Spirit and done what was right. I am trying to move on but at times I have trouble.

I hope this year brings great changes to my life. I know the Lord is watching over me. I am grateful for the joy the Gospel brings to my life.

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So I just did a nice post with pictures from my halloween party and it somehow is totally gone now and I have to start over. I will not spend so much time on it this time since I am now annoyed.

Anyway I made the costume...but I look really wide in it. My friend Pam painted the wings and did my makeup (AND EARS!!!!!!!) and my cousin did my hair. From the neck up I looked like I had always pictured a fairy looking. The rest well...it worked.

Busy bee

So I've been lucky enough (or unlucky enough since I have less hours which equals less money for bills) to have better days off last week and this week. Last week I got Friday off and got to go to Dinner Club with my ward. For those of you who don't know what that is: We signed up to go and were split into groups and just went over to someones house for dinner and games. I had a lot of fun and got to know more of the people in my ward.

Now when I saw my schedule at work I was not too happy. I work 3 six hour days and that's all. I was told I'd be working 30 a week and I'm not even getting 20 this week.

However, now that I know all the fun things that are going on this week I am much happier. Tonight a bunch of us are going to Thanksgiving Point to go through the corn maze --I do have a problem though (no money) since I am working so much less than I was told I would be--it costs $11 to go. Tomorrow I work. Wednesday the Relief Society is getting together to carve pumpkins. Again I have to have money to get a pumpkin and some carving tools. Thursday I work. Friday is a hallowen party for single adults. I need a costume. Any ideas that won't cost money? And Saturday I work.

Why does EVERYTHING have to cost money? Am I rethinking keeping my car? You bet ya. It is a very reliable car so I hate to get rid of it. But if it meant I didn't have to borrow money I would do it.

I'm excited to have things to do and to not have to work, but seriously when you have no money to do the things they do what do you do?

Anywho my main point was to ask for non money suggestions for a halloween costume.

hehe

I obviously had no idea how to use the codes. This is what I got. Do you think it's true?


You Are a Red Crayon
Your world is colored with bright, vivid, wild colors.You have a deep, complex personality - and you are always expressing something about yourself.Bold and dominant, you are a natural leader. You have an energy that is intense... and sometimes overwhelming.Your reaction to everything tends to be strong. You are the master of love-hate relationships.Your color wheel opposite is green. Green people are way too mellow to understand what drives your energy.

Blab

Well, I have now had my job a couple of weeks. I get my first paycheck Friday and with all that I need to do I will be out of money the same day. My light is on in my car telling me I need an oil change, I have to change my ID to my maiden name, register my car in Utah (getting an emisions test first), change my insurance, move my loan, pay my tithing (witch really is first on my list), and if I can get my tires rotated and hope they'll last. I've driven that car for two years now and the tires haven't been rotated ever!

I do have a few problems with my job. One: It is soooooo boring most of the time. On weekdays there aren't many people who come in, and I'm supposed to have things to keep myself and the sales associate busy. Two: I don't want to work nights. I don't get home until 10 or 10:30 and then I'm WIDE AWAKE. For the last at least three years I have been going to bed around 10. Now I go to bed around 12 or 1.

I can't allow myself to go to sleep until I'm totally ready, meaning I have to read until my eyes start drooping. For otherwise I will think and thinking right now is really bad. I tend to get upset when I think. I decided it's really hard to get over this divorce (not that I thought it would be easy) because I do still Love Ray, but because of the other problems we couldn't stay married. I try really hard to stay positive and upbeat but when I'm alone it comes out almost every single time.

The good things I have found here are: An awesome ward! I started going to a singles ward a couple of weeks ago and I absolutely LOVE going to church. In fact I look forward to it. The first Sunday I went I felt the spirit so strong and I haven't felt that in years! The people are very friendly also.

Oh, I have also started over again reading the Twilight series and I've decided everyone needs to read it more than once. It's so much better the second time.